I am having a very bad day, so bare with me for a while.
Do you ever have days when you just want to kill everyone around you, when you put all your effort to answer others’s questions, when every remark makes you want to kill yourself, when you hope that by hitting your head repeatedly against the desk will kill you, when nothing can make you smile?
Because I’ve been having those for about a week. And today my nerves have been stretched to maximum. I hate those imbeciles that don’t grade us based on our qualities, that popular girl everyone seems to be in love with, that person that is lucky and gets all good grades. I mean, the only one who has a more depressing life is the character in my book. And he was chosen to be a character, which is as good as things can get.
I want to be a fictional character. It would be much, much better. Why can’t Peter Pan come flying in my room? Why doesn’t the Doctor appear in his Tardis and take me away? Why can’t I solve cases with a high dysfunctional sociopath? Why can’t I kiss Jack Sparrow and then save him from the death? Why can’t I live in Barcelona and be one of Zafon’s characters?
I mean, not even Christmas songs can cheer me up, which is something.
Ugh, 3 more days until the End of the World. Hopefully.
People,pardon my language, suck. Though human beings are known to be the most intelligent creatures alive, they are also the meanest, the most selfish and the most hypocrite. Day by day I see the living proof of human badness. Never, however sincere someone may seem, never trust a human being. Just when you think you know a person, they turn out to be something else. When you finally think you’ve found a great lifetime friend they are going to stab you in the back, right when you need them most. You may wonder, what is wrong with me today, why the so negative post, but you know it’s true. People are made to let other people down. If something seems to good to be true, it’s because it probably is. No one is good to someone, for the simple reason of being a kind person. Everyone has a dark side, a demonic being inside. Every time you put trust into someone you get hurt. Any yet people are so needy. Everyone needs to be loved, everyone needs friends. And in this up down world, where everything seems wrong, in the midst of this miserable life, I am thankful, oh so thankful to the only friends that have never let me down. I don’t know if they are going to stab me in the back someday, but right now, I doubt it. 15 years of friendship is a long time, and I’m sure more beautiful years are going to come. Years of harm and joy, of friendships and dissapointemens.
“People, you can never change the way they feel, better let them do just what they will, for they will.”